Sobbing and Sneezes
This afternoon, I dropped Greg off at the airport as he is flying out to San Francisco for a business trip. I have been dreading this all week. I am going to miss him so much and this will be the longest we have ever been apart in our 6 years of marriage. As I dropped him off, he gave Adrianna and I both a goodbye kiss and I tried my hardest to compose myself and hold back tears. Then, I drove away. He stood there and watched us pull away and waved. After I waved back and turned back to look at the road, I couldn’t hold back the floodgates any longer. I cried most of the way home. I am fighting tears even now when I think about it.
I think it would have been easier if he were to have just got in our car and drove off from our house rather than me having to drop him off and leave him. Somehow, that would have seemed more normal, like he was just going to the grocery store and I could expect him back at any moment.
The rest of the afternoon drug on. I called Greg before his plane took off, and I expect a call from him in an hour when he has a layover in Portland. I am already looking forward to hearing his voice again, even if it is only for a few minutes. Just to know he is safe too. I hate flying and I am fearful for my family when they have to fly. September 11th only magnified that fear and gave me one more thing to worry about as a thing that could go wrong on a flight.
Adrianna has been a doll and such a comfort. She has been really cuddly; nuzzling her head on my shoulder and wanting to be held. We did have one funny moment this evening. while I was feeding her some dinner. Right after I had just spooned a big bite of green veggies into her mouth, she sneezed. Bits of dark green landed all over the highchair tray and all over me and my clothing. And of course I am wearing one of my favorite shirts too since I wanted to look nice for Greg today before I dropped him off. So between the green veggies and friendly noserubs that Adrianna also so graciously provides me on a daily basis, I hope a good soaking will work wonders.
Well, on another note, yesterday was our 6 year wedding anniversary. We are going to celebrate it when Greg returns from California. Six Years. Has it really been that long? It has been a wonderful 6 years. This past year has been a lot of fun, and I have enjoyed watching our marriage grow and change as we ourselves grow and change in our new roles as parents to Adrianna. A friend once told me that a woman’s love for her husband often grows and deepens once you have a child, and I would have to say that it is true. Watching Greg with Adrianna brings me so much joy and I feel truly blessed to have them both in my life.