I am freaking out
I am totally freaking out now that the day is here. What have I gotten myself into?
I watched Birth Day on Discovery Health this morning. It was a show with normal, ordinary births. It had me totally crying (because birth is so miraculous) and scared spitless (because I am going to go through that soon) by the end. This huge baby is going to come out of there. *shudder* Not only that, but afterwards, I am going to have this real, live baby to care for. What was I thinking? I don’t know anything about babies! I don’t even hold other people’s babies.
I guess there is no turning back now. I am scheduled to go in tonight to start the induction process. I cannot believe this day is finally here. It feels like I have been pregnant for forever and a day.
I have to admit that in spite of my being completely terrified of having a baby, I am also excited to hold her in my arms. To see the face of this little being who has been kicking me for months. And as I said before, birth is such a miraculous thing. The wonders of it all – how is it that this little baby has been growing inside of me for 9 months? How amazing that she is going to be a part of myself and a part of Greg. I am so excited about that. What an experience!
I just hope she doesn’t inherit the Yergler curse of clumsiness and freak accidents. Or flat feet and long, alien toes.