Monthly Archives: November 2007

To My Precious Little Baby

To my precious little baby,

You weren’t with us long, but oh how much you were loved by your Daddy and I. We were amazed to see your heart beating at only 6 weeks. When we got the news yesterday (at 8.5 weeks) that you had left us to live in heaven, we were overwhelmed with sadness that we would not get to hold you in our arms. But know that we hold you in our hearts and I know that you are with your Creator who has called you by name even before your birth and He loves you even more than we do. Because of this hope, I know that we will meet again in heaven. Until then, we love you.

To My Precious Little Baby
Credits: Paper & Elements from Shabby Princess‘ Urban Kiwi Kit

I had five private postings over the last month regarding our pregnancy and its complications. I have made them public now that our family knows what is going on. They can be found by clicking on the “Our Second Child” Category.

Subchorionic Hemorrhage

I have been having heavy bleeding since Friday (today’s Monday) so we went to the doctor again to get another checkup. It started out very unsettling, as they tried to do a regular ultrasound and couldn’t see the baby. They didn’t have a tech at the office today who could do a vaginal one, so they sent us downstairs. After a long wait, we got another ultrasound, this one vaginal. It was more than a little embarrassing since I was bleeding so much. (So was the urine sample that I had to give, which ended up being more red than yellow.)

Anyways, they were able to determine that the baby is still there and the heartbeat is still going too. What relief! They also saw what is causing the bleeding; something they called a Subchorionic Hemorrhage. This is basically bleeding behind the placenta, often caused by a blood clot. The complication that this can cause is that it can cause the baby’s sac to detach from the uterus and miscarry. But the doctor said I had a 60% chance that it would be okay. I am hanging on to that hope. We really want this baby.

So now all we can do is wait and take it easy. I am going to stay off my feet as much as possible and work from home. If the bleeding continues this heavy, we will go back on Thursday. If it lightens up to spotting and then starts in heavy again, we go back as well. Otherwise, my next appointment is in two weeks. I guess we will take this one day at a time.

I am so glad the little baby is hanging in there.

Worry for the baby

I have been spotting for a week and a half. This past Tuesday, it was fresh blood, so I became concerned and scheduled a doctor’s appointment. We went in this morning. I wasn’t bleeding at the time; that usually starts in the afternoon after I have been on my feet for awhile. Anyways, we had an internal ultrasound and got to see the baby. Not much to see yet at only 6.5 weeks, but we did get to see the heart beating. Everything measured out fine as well. So I was feeling much encouraged. Until this afternoon.

This afternoon I started bleeding. Like actual bleeding, more than just spotting. Had I not already known I was pregnant, I would just have assumed this was a regular period type of bleeding. And fresh blood. After several hours of this, I called the on-call service, sobbing. The doctor called me back. Long story short; there isn’t anything they can do for me at this point if I am miscarrying. I really hope I am not. I want this baby very much. I am already excited to meet him or her. Adrianna’s little brother or sister. I am going to take it easy this weekend and hope that helps, since there isn’t anything I can do. Nothing but wait. The waiting and not knowing is going to be really tough.