A Working Dilemma

So we found out last week that our team has to move to our new building in Aurora this coming Friday, which means my commute time is going to double. And the dress code is business casual. No more jeans, sandals, or sleeveless shirts. ARGH. I have hardly anything to wear, but I guess the good news is that I get to go shopping.

I still haven’t decided if I am going to work full-time or not. I am wavering. On one hand, I feel so guilty even thinking about going back to work full-time and leaving Adrianna with our neighbor, Janette. On the other hand, I would continue to make the sacrifice of getting up at an ungodly hour (which will become even more ungodly due to the longer commute time) so that I can be home by 3 and spend all afternoon and evening with Adrianna. And Greg doesn’t take her over there until 9, so she wouldn’t even be there full days. That helps appease my guilt somewhat, but it is just such a hard decision. So I keep putting it off, but I cannot get it off of my mind.

Another plus is that Adrianna loves Janette and all the little boys that are in her childcare with her. And she learns from them too, I think. I cannot make up my mind. And we like Janette too. She has been such a blessing to us. She is a great neighbor, a Christian, a friend, and very affordable too when it comes to childcare. And I guess I should mention that I do really enjoy my job and it pays pretty well. So there really are a lot of pros to going back full-time. But then I picture my sweet baby’s face and the guilt comes flooding back like a tidal wave. Does that feeling ever go away?

Can someone make up my mind for me? *sigh* I know, I know, I need to make my own decision. Greg has already told me it is up to me. He is totally fine with me working full-time. How come this type of decision is so much harder on mom than it is on dad?

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3 Responses

  1. Rhonda says:

    For me, I HAVE to work, so there really wasn’t an option. It is so hard to leave the kiddos behind at first. But they seem fine with it, and you know, it makes the time that we have oh so special 🙂

  2. jamie says:

    I completely feel your pain. I know I was debating for so long about day care for e. Well, what happened is we signed up in Feb to start in Sept bc there werent any open spots at the daycare til then. So i felt like I wasnt really making a decision right then because if something came up before Sept I could always change my mind, thus putting off really thinking about it. But then they called and said that they had an open spot now if we wanted to take it because some kid moved. So then we said yeah, but crap then I wasnt sure. I suffered ALOT for a few days but then just decided to go ahead with it because I really felt that he would love it there because he loves to play with the other kids and he would have more toys and more stimulation and different activities. I feel like we get bored in the house alot now. But then 3 days after he started there was an outbreak of the measels and we had to take e to get vaccinated and he hasnt been back since. The Dr said to wait 2-3 weeks before we take him back there. So now during this time I am thinking, was that God’s way of saying not to take him? Maybe I shouldnt take him if he is going to get sick there. I dont know what to do. I keep praying and praying about it. But I dont know if I am hearing what I want to hear or if I am really hearing God. You know what I mean?

  3. Nettie says:

    That is such a tough decision! We decided with ours to always try to work it so either I or my husband could watch them, but that meant working from home or less than ideal jobs at weird hours. Now that we can afford for me to stay home, I do. I honestly love being home with my kids more than working. Nice blog, by the way. Your Adrianna is a doll. I enjoyed going back and looking at her photos as she’s grown from baby to toddler.

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